2017-06-10

notmypresident: (Curious Beardo)
I've been wondering about Brad, the first person I ever came out to, ever since mentioning him in a recent post. It's been about ten years since he and I had any contact. I really don't know what caused the loss of his friendship, and that bugs the hell out of me. I've always assumed that I lost Brad (and his husband, Jerry) during my break-up with my former long-term partner. That didn't end well, and I assumed that Brad — who was also friends with my ex — thought I'd been terribly unfair to him. That reaction could have been coupled with Brad's moving back to Iowa, where he'd been raised.

A couple of years ago I got an address for Brad from the internet and sent him a card. I got no response, and told myself that the online address for him was outdated. I mean, I also told myself that no response was indeed a response of a sort. Brad and Jerry may simply want nothing to do with me ever again.

So I'm debating whether I should send another card. This would be my last-ditch attempt to reach Brad; anything further would probably make me a stalker. I want the card to express a simple greeting with no expectations. Even after all this time, I still think of Brad and Jerry as Gay Family. It would be nice to find out that they're doing all right.

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